“Is there anything to feel. Is it pain that makes you real. Cut me off before it kills me. Long way down. I don’t think I’ll make it on my own.”
–Goo Goo Dolls
Another Saturday has come round and that means it’s time for another Stream of Consciousness:
I need as a part of my week.
I guess that’s kind of like “Winning!” and Charlie, wherever you are, if ever there were stream of consciousness, you were it.
I am celebrating a few things this week. First of them is the Canadian Thanksgiving this weekend, where my family come together, eat my mother’s delicious dinner, and have a whole lot of fun and good times. I am certainly winning with this to look forward to.
Perhaps I will write about the events of the day’s celebrating in next week’s SoCS post.
As for other reasons I am celebrating, this week just so happened to be the anniversaries for three important things in my life.
It has been 15 years, this week, since the very first episode of Gilmore Girls aired for the very first time.
I can’t believe how fast time passes me by. Really.
I know many people think this show is irritating, but I was immediately, or nearly so, just so drawn into its characters and premise, from almost the very beginning.
I was glad to see that television could still be original. The writing was snappy and witty. So many references to literature, culture, music, and so many things I did not know, would go right over my head, but these girls seemed to come up with this stuff, like stream of consciousness was could and did come just so unbelievably naturally to them in their everyday lives.
There was just the right amount of drama and fun. The town and its residents were wacky and out-there. I most definitely did not have that relationship with my own mother, could not have had a more different family situation than the Gilmores’. That was the attraction, I suppose.
Watching that show was a way I could bond with a friend, even when I felt like I was losing touch with her and the rest of my world, in all other ways at the time. She and I could still get together and have an all night Gilmore Girls marathon, cup after cup of coffee consumed in her basement, until we both ended up falling asleep in the early hours of the morning anyway.
Back when I taped every single episode on VHS and then began collecting DVD.
Next, going back 20 years and this week in time. The huge Goo Goo Dolls album, “A Boy Named Goo” was released and this rock group was my best wishes/going away/good luck with your kidney transplant gift, presented to me by my seventh grade class, at the party they had for me before I left.
Sure…it was stolen…when my house was robbed…as I found out my transplant had to be postponed…due to a sudden and mysterious seizure I’d just had…but the robbers couldn’t have known, what that CD meant to me, or I’m sure they would have stayed home and lived to rob another day.
Insurance bought back all our stuff in the end, but I loved my present and loved the music.
Speaking of this particular Goo Goo Dolls album…I really first heard their songs on the season six finale of the show that turns 25 this week.
This week in history…Beverly Hills 90210 first aired and this time I was not there, would not be for a few years.
I wanted to write a whole post to explain, to commemorate the value of this show for my life during the 90s, but then I fear sounding frivolous and silly. How could some glam and superficial show about privileged teenagers, living in Beverly Hills, how could this mean something so great?
Maybe you don’t ask, but I write about it here, think stream of consciousness is the perfect time to write about it.
My sister caught on first, but we were both still quite young in the early to mid 90s. We weren’t prevented from watching the more adult type shows.
Summer episodes, at the Beverly Hills Beach Club were the summer later, after the show aired on Fox. It was then that it took off and the phenomenon started.
My decade would soon be shaped by 90210 and its 10 season run. I started to watch the recorded episodes my sister had, braille labelling the VHS tapes and watching the shows, over and over again.
When I would eventually get sick, in 96/97 I would watch to escape, to imagine I was a beautiful, blond bombshell with a credit card and a boyfriend. Yes, I use the word bombshell. I had the posters and the dolls. Barbie became Beverly Hillized. I was stuck in a world between little girl playing with Barbie and the grown world of nighttime dramas. Every Wednesday at 8:00 I would watch, I would record. I would learn the lines by heart.
Kelly’s mother: “What do you want to do?”
Kelly Taylor: “Smell the roses. Maybe ponder the question of why God bothers to give us life in the first place when all he seems to do is fill it with pain and suffering.”
–Kelly Taylor/Jennie Garth
This line made me cry. Over and over, when pain and fear in my own life were at their worst, during the 90s and beyond.
I wanted to acknowledge these three events, for the role they all three played in the significant moments in my young life.
Celebrating a show or an album and its anniversary and poignancy in my life is really celebrating a feeling.
But I guess, now, I’m really just rambling.
3 thoughts on “15, 20, 25, #SoCS”
A lovely ramble, my dear. I enjoyed watching 90210 too, so you’re not alone there. 🙂 Have a wonderful Thanksgiving! 😀
Same to you.
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