I’ve Got A Feeling (It’s Complicated) #LoIsInDaBl

It’s complicated. Love is complicated. Those who can argue this point are either very lucky or very determined. I envy them for that.

As a two-parter for the final few remaining

MINDFUL MONDAY’S A MINDFUL EXERCISE,

I plan to borrow from the proceeding

SONG LYRIC SUNDAY

to speak, through lyrics, about the highs and lows of love and relationships.

No matter where I’ve been or what I might have been doing in my life, lyrics have always just been there. I am more mindful of my own feelings and those of others because of this fact.

Don’t Speak – No Doubt

I don’t care if you’re 15 or 25 – it never feels good to be dumped over the phone.

Don’t Call Me Baby – Kreesha Turner

But I suppose it’s a step up, slight as can be, from how it’s done today, over a text.

Love Song – Sara Bareilles

There was one Christmas I won’t soon forget. Anticipation building. Coming home, in the snow, with the lights and a smile and thoughts of the possibility of ease of conversation, fresh memory of a first date lingering.

Sober – Pink

Then there was the awkward Christmas Day night date. A little soon, to meet family perhaps, making for one awkward time. Or the New Year’s Eve party invite that was turned down in fear and hesitation. More than one missed opportunities and one cold Valentine’s Day, on the front porch swing, and a giant teddy bear, holding a huge heart.

Within one month though, after a bad movie date, the most uncomfortable movie choice and a sign of things to come: He’s Just Not That Into You. Yeah, really, it was over, but I’d get the T-shirt.

Two Is Better Than One – Boys Like Girls Feat. Taylor Swift

It’s amazing how much can change between when a movie is out in theatres and when it comes out on video/DVD.

I Know You Want Me – Pitbull

Did I know what I wanted? Did I have a clue? Sometimes you’ve just got to go with it. If you look back, at the good times and your need to reach back into the past and change it all is no greater than your fondest memories that also took place, then perhaps it all happened for a reason.

Don’t Stop ‘Til You Get Enough – Michael Jackson

Something had swept me away. Maybe it was the excited commotion of my sister’s upcoming wedding. I don’t really know for sure. I missed her bachelorette party for another wedding that came first. I was being pulled in two different directions, but family comes first and I felt guilty. That was the summer of marriages, but for me, it all revolved around the question, the feeling of love.

I Gotta Feeling – Black Eyed Peas

How do you really know when you’re in love? People always just say you’ll know. Simple as that.

Use Somebody – Kings of Leon

A relationship is all about compromise. Give and take, right? Or should that really be a lot more “give” and a lot less “take”?

Love The Way You Lie – EminEm Feat. Rihanna

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Woman In Chains – Tears For Fears Feat. Oleta Adams

Long distance romance. How would that work? Does that work for people? If so, how can it be sustained? I could never quite figure that part out, after the initial excitement wore off.

Price Tag – Jessie J Feat. B.o.B

I made some big decisions, out of fear mostly, and the time of these was short lived, but a hard one to take in, once I realized what a big mistake I’d made.

Where I Stood – Missy Higgins

“I don’t know what I’ve done. Or if I like what I’ve begun. Something told me to run
and honey, you know me – it’s all or none. But there were sounds in my head, little voices whispering. That I should go and this should end. And I found myself listening.”

–Missy Higgins

Shared values were always important to me, but somewhere along the line I’d lost sight of that. I had to take back my life.

Give Me Everything – Pitbull Feat. Ne-Yo, Afrojack, Nayer

&

Moves Like Jagger – Maroon 5 Feat. Christina Aguilera

Now, I had no desire to learn to “move like Jagger”, but I did feel like I wanted to live-in-the-moment, as summertime tends to affect me in a strange way, I was now ready to live out a summer filled with new experiences and opportunities to try things I hadn’t tried before.

(A lot more about these things to come in a guest post I wrote, which should be coming in the next few weeks.)

We Found Love – Rihanna Feat. Calvin Harris

Love. I could feel it building, once more, but what would make it different this time?

Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop – Landon Pigg

I was afraid that finding happiness was a fluke, one that wasn’t even what I’d wanted, or what was right for me. I was scared I’d never find anything more, again, but it was the reassuring word of my big brother, in an email, that gave me back my faith.

A Night Like This – Tomi Swick

He basically sold me on the whole “plenty of fish in the sea” argument, but his sale wasn’t one I had to doubt. He was right. He usually, nearly almost always is. Since he gave me this most excellent, highly rational and logical advice he has become a parent. Everyone knows parents know everything, right? Of course they do.

Slow – Rumer

The home I live in now holds onto memories, even if some days I wished it wouldn’t, but some of the best are wrapped up inside of the home I lived in first, but of which now belongs to my parents.

Fire and the Flood – Vance Joy

I can’t escape some things, so I don’t even bother trying. I’ve simply had to let the memories wash over me, from those first and hardest of days up until today. I smile, at least once, every time I visit there now, even as my heart/gut does just the slightest twinge at the same time.

The Sweetest Days – Vanessa Williams

So, when the newness of a relationship begins to fade, reality sets in and brings everything into sharper focus. Things that may have always been there or newly grow, slow, they can’t soon be ignored.

Realize – Colbie Caillat

And then the fall and I wonder…

All Good Things (Come To An End) – Nelly Furtado

“Flames to dust. Lovers to friends. Why do all good things come to an end?”

–Nelly Furtado

And I’m left to ponder this eternal/universal question.

Until Part Two, next Monday.